St. Thomas Episcopal Church | Medina


Thoughts and Happenings

LENT 2019 - Thursday, March 21

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Psalm 73:6. When I tried to understand these things, it was too hard for me.

When I first began to reflect on this passage, I didn’t realize how well it encompassed me. My immediate thoughts to being called upon for this was that I was incapable and it was, indeed, too hard for me. I chose to speak to my mom about the passage and my frustration with it, and she definitely had some things to say. By her observation, this passage was so me, that she was shocked I hadn’t connected with it right away. I began to recognize that this passage was a majority of my personality crammed into one sentence. As much as I hate to admit it, I overthink and I stress about the small things, which results in my tendency to choose the flight over the fight. Whenever I’m given a new task, whether it be calculus or life-related, my immediate thought is that it’s too difficult and I can’t do it. Yet, when I dive into whatever task I’m given, I begin to learn, understand, and most importantly, realize that it wasn’t as hard as I initially thought it was going to be.

I think that full understanding isn’t always the most important element when presented with any situation. Sometimes it does take a leap of faith before reaching that point of learning. But sometimes this means asking for help from others, which can be a leap of faith within itself. I guess what I have received from this is that it’s okay to not understand something fully at first, but instead of giving up immediately, choosing to persevere instead.

—Sophie Crane